Cuando amor no es locura, no es amor.

Pedro Calderón de la Barca's words couldn't sound truer than at a time where the heart and mind crusade against the other. Well of course the ''heart'' has nothing to do with it; let's call it the irrational. One feels that there is nothing but madness in what this entity asks. There is risk, there is affront, there is pain even often conveyed onto others. The rational mind is at ends in trying to figure out why one would even fathom its persuit. A safer, painless way is always available, at the expense of the extinguishment of one's irrational voices.

One thing I cannot bear talking about is certainly love. It makes me feel like a surgeon trying to operate a beating heart with a pick-axe. Or trying to decipher a page of Braille with sand on it. The imprecision of words combined with the elusiveness of the feeling don't mix elegantly in worded forms other than poetry. Or music perhaps...

J.S. Bach - Suite No.4 in E flat major - 1. Prelude - Mstislav Rostropovich

between a rock and...

there are these days where you just feel cold. and not solely because of the badly isolated window to the left of your computer. you realize you spat on something wonderful because you were disillusioned with what you figured were greener pastures on the other side of the fence. you hadn't stopped to think about whether or not these pastures wanted to welcome you to... graze upon them?

this metaphor is too twisted. but then again so are amorous impulses.

here is the music of the moment:

Georges Brassens - Cupidon s'en fout
http://www.mediafire.com/?yzztzk2uzvm

here's for the moment before:

Eyedea & Abilites - Paradise
http://www.mediafire.com/?wwmztkwo2w2

the persistence of the moment before:

Eric Clapton - Old Love
http://www.mediafire.com/?ykn2ykyjam0

and here's to remember that life is much, much grander than all this:

Charlie Haden and Ernie Watts with strings; cello, Larry Corbett and Jerry Kessler - Moment Musical Opus 16 No. 3 in B Minor
http://www.mediafire.com/?k2mmzymmyvj